My fiancee knows me very well, and he knows that I did not want him to pick out my engagement ring for me, because I am very particular and I really wanted to be able to pick it out for myself. I am going to have to wear it on my finger forever, and so I really wanted to be sure it was something that I would love and want to always wear. Its not that I don’t trust him or that I don’t like his taste, but it is that I know myself well enough to know that I don’t really know what I want. I can’t explain what I would want it to look like, I would just have to see it. I already know that I would just have to see one and then I would know that it was what I wanted. So he has always known that I was going to want to pick out my own ring, and he has always been okay with that. Which is great, because it would have been hard if he wasn’t okay with me wanting to pick out my own ring. But now that he is my fiancee, we have been heading out to look at jewelry stores and engagement rings for the last few weekends. I have found several that I liked, but they just weren’t the one. I am a bit neurotic about it actually, and I fully recognize and accept that fact. But I just know that once I find it, it will be perfect and I’ll know that it is the one. For the actual proposal, since he did it over dinner in a public place, he did have a ring, but it wasn’t the ring. He just used a ring that I already have and already wear all the time. He had snatched it from my jewelry case and put it in a little box. Then he surprised me with the serious question, and when I accepted he pulled out the box and put the ring on my finger. Everyone around us clapped, so it would have been weird to see happen if there was no ring. People would have wondered why he proposed without an engagement ring. But now that we are planning the wedding and all that, I need to find the wedding ring and the engagement ring, which seems like a lot to have to look for. I guess if I were to find them in a set, that would be the best option. But I’ve been looking at heirloom pieces and other sorts of things, so it is unlikely that I would find such a set. I may end up just finding one ring and using that for both, which would be great and really would be okay with both of us. Its just that the pressure is on to find something, and so I keep heading out and looking, certain that I am someday going to find something that will be perfect. I can’t wait, because I really want to wear a ring.